I feel excitement when someone asks me to create a piece of art work for them, whether it is art jewellery, ceramics or something else I never get over the secret and pleasurable thought that somebody actually values my work enough to ask me to create more of it.
I suppose, this felling must be felt by all artists to varying degrees. But I wander if perhaps when fame and success take over, whether this combination of satisfaction and excitement still remains or perhaps a touch of self importance takes over. Perhaps this feeling of excitement is important to the creative process and helps to intensify the creative energy. The ‘secret’ pleasure of being valued gives the artist a sense that they are appreciated and compels them to continue creating.
There is also a quiet nervousness, it’s so hidden away but as they say…a little bit of nerves are good! I think the nerves of an artist are better termed creative nerves. I feel that it is the creative energy bubbling away beneath, just waiting to be allowed out in full force. Rather like a wild cat waiting to pounce upon its prey, so the creative energy within me is poised and ready to be called upon without time constraints or inhibitions to check its process.
“…Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Having observed myself in this new state of quiet creative nervousness, I then recall the speech written by Marianne Williamson in her book A Return To Love (also words often associated with Mr Mandela). There is a fear, a reluctance to freely create. Often these shackles to the creative process can be practical such as money, undervalued talent, lack of time, but at other times they can be deeper rooted than this. Artists can be held back by the establishment, social norms, trends, cliches and ‘trying to be different’. To feel liberated from our own fear, the creative process has to be excited, inspired and explored so that it can shine with natural uniqueness and flair.
Creative nerves are a small stimulus that can begin that process of inspiration and exploration and can lead an artist into fresh, new ground.